Day 30 - Your Favorite Song At This Time Last Year
Savior by Rise Against
It's still tied as my favorite song with Sing by My Chemical Romance (Day 1). Seriously, though, what is with awesome songs having the strangest videos?
***
It's Thursday:)
1) I am grateful that the extremely high fever and nausea that Caleb had during the night is gone so that he can go and spend the weekend at Grandma Jo and Grandpa Bob's house. (Also grateful to have a few days breather from the older boys)
2) I am grateful that we handed back the keys to the old unit this week. It feels so nice to not have to worry about it anymore and to be able to move forward. We have some really good memories of that place (bringing home Ty and Brettley), but there are quite a few bad memories as well (my disorder going out of control as we tried to figure out how to control it). It's nice to be able to start fresh.
3) I am grateful for the wonderful country that I live in. I am SO happy to be a Canadian. I love this place so much. Happy 144th birthday tomorrow, Canada!!!
Have a wonderful weekend and enjoy Canada's birthday. We will be having poutine for supper, does it get more Canadian than that?
The goings on of our geeky little family and the musings and soapbox moments of the lone female in the group.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Day 29, Allergens & Dummies
Day 29 - A Song From Your Childhood
The Loco-Motion by Kylie Minogue
I could have picked oh so many songs (up to and including Alice Cooper), but decided to go with this one from when we took a trip down east when I was 4. So here an 80s flashback for you.
***
Yesterday was such a throwaway day. Caleb and Brettley were both really off of their game from the immunizations. Ty, however, decided to do every single naughty thing he could think of during the times that I was feeding the baby. It was not so much fun.
During the night both of the boys woke up and came into our room. Caleb was coughing and sneezing and I was coughing as well. I'm not sure what was in the air but after about an hour or so of trying to get them back to sleep I did something I thought I'd never do. I Benadryled my kids to see if it would help them sleep. They did sleep though and Caleb's not coughing as much this morning, so it must have helped. So we're obviously a bit on the tired side today. Oddly enough, the only one who slept through the night was Brettley.
Brettley has some exciting news. He has officially decided that he's done with the dummy (soother). We are very happy that, like Caleb, he has chosen on his own to get rid of it at a very young age. Ty had his the longest (9 months). Brettley doesn't fuss much unless he's hungry, so there's really no need for it anyway. So we are now a dummy free home:)
The Loco-Motion by Kylie Minogue
I could have picked oh so many songs (up to and including Alice Cooper), but decided to go with this one from when we took a trip down east when I was 4. So here an 80s flashback for you.
***
Yesterday was such a throwaway day. Caleb and Brettley were both really off of their game from the immunizations. Ty, however, decided to do every single naughty thing he could think of during the times that I was feeding the baby. It was not so much fun.
During the night both of the boys woke up and came into our room. Caleb was coughing and sneezing and I was coughing as well. I'm not sure what was in the air but after about an hour or so of trying to get them back to sleep I did something I thought I'd never do. I Benadryled my kids to see if it would help them sleep. They did sleep though and Caleb's not coughing as much this morning, so it must have helped. So we're obviously a bit on the tired side today. Oddly enough, the only one who slept through the night was Brettley.
Brettley has some exciting news. He has officially decided that he's done with the dummy (soother). We are very happy that, like Caleb, he has chosen on his own to get rid of it at a very young age. Ty had his the longest (9 months). Brettley doesn't fuss much unless he's hungry, so there's really no need for it anyway. So we are now a dummy free home:)
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Day 28 & The Plan
Day 28 - A Song That Makes You Feel Guilty
With Arms Wide Open by Creed
Sometimes I feel that going into starting a family with both parents suffering from mental illness that we have condemned our children because the odds are a lot higher that they will suffer from some form of it as well. This song kind of reminds me of that ("If I had just one wish, only one demand, I hope he's not like me, I hope he understands that he can take his life and hold it by the hand and he can greet the world with arms wide open"). I LOVE this song, even if it does occasionally make me feel a bit guilty.
***
John and I had a good talk last night about exercising. We decided to scale it back and build up to it. Let's face it. I am overweight and horribly out of shape. Trying to run makes me almost puke right now because my body isn't ready to take that step. So we decided that every week day I will use the WiiFit Plus during the day and then go for a 30 minute brisk walk every evening to get used to exercising again and to doing so in the outdoors. Once that becomes easy then I'll start adding in the running part. If I just trying and go full guns with running right now I'll hate every second of it and never want to do it. If I help prepare my body more to handle it, then it won't be such a shock to my body and I'll be able to enjoy it more.
John went and did the walk through for the old place last night. It sounds like we should get a fair chunk of our deposit back, which is nice. We are very happy to be done with the place and just moving forward now.
Today is going to be another lazy movies day as Caleb still has a fever from his shots. Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing the right thing by having them immunized, but I'd rather this than them getting really sick and dying or something because I didn't have them immunized. So many people are going without immunizing their kids now that I feel these things are going to start popping back up. I'd rather know that I'm doing my best to protect my kids.
With Arms Wide Open by Creed
Sometimes I feel that going into starting a family with both parents suffering from mental illness that we have condemned our children because the odds are a lot higher that they will suffer from some form of it as well. This song kind of reminds me of that ("If I had just one wish, only one demand, I hope he's not like me, I hope he understands that he can take his life and hold it by the hand and he can greet the world with arms wide open"). I LOVE this song, even if it does occasionally make me feel a bit guilty.
***
John and I had a good talk last night about exercising. We decided to scale it back and build up to it. Let's face it. I am overweight and horribly out of shape. Trying to run makes me almost puke right now because my body isn't ready to take that step. So we decided that every week day I will use the WiiFit Plus during the day and then go for a 30 minute brisk walk every evening to get used to exercising again and to doing so in the outdoors. Once that becomes easy then I'll start adding in the running part. If I just trying and go full guns with running right now I'll hate every second of it and never want to do it. If I help prepare my body more to handle it, then it won't be such a shock to my body and I'll be able to enjoy it more.
John went and did the walk through for the old place last night. It sounds like we should get a fair chunk of our deposit back, which is nice. We are very happy to be done with the place and just moving forward now.
Today is going to be another lazy movies day as Caleb still has a fever from his shots. Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing the right thing by having them immunized, but I'd rather this than them getting really sick and dying or something because I didn't have them immunized. So many people are going without immunizing their kids now that I feel these things are going to start popping back up. I'd rather know that I'm doing my best to protect my kids.
Monday, June 27, 2011
Day 27 And Such
Day 27 - A Song That You Wish You Could Play
One by Metallica
I tried to find a live version of this to use because I don't like how they added movie clips with words into the video and I love the lights in the live performances, but all of the live ones have a bad word in them, so I had to use the actual video:( There is a wicked guitar bit in this song though, and it's a song that I've loved for years and years.
***
I started running this morning. It was torture. I could only do 5 reps of running before I had to call it a day and set a goal to do 6 tomorrow. I almost got sick a couple of times. However, I'm going to keep on going and make this happen. My friend, Heidi (who is a major athletic type), said that I'll hate the first 3 weeks and then I'll start to love it. She's right about the hating it part so I'm hoping she's right about the loving it part as well.
Caleb and Brettley had their immunizations this morning. Caleb totally freaked out, but now he's done until grade 5. Brettley weighed in at 13 lbs 1 oz. The health nurse said he's growing very well. That's about it, I guess.
One by Metallica
I tried to find a live version of this to use because I don't like how they added movie clips with words into the video and I love the lights in the live performances, but all of the live ones have a bad word in them, so I had to use the actual video:( There is a wicked guitar bit in this song though, and it's a song that I've loved for years and years.
***
I started running this morning. It was torture. I could only do 5 reps of running before I had to call it a day and set a goal to do 6 tomorrow. I almost got sick a couple of times. However, I'm going to keep on going and make this happen. My friend, Heidi (who is a major athletic type), said that I'll hate the first 3 weeks and then I'll start to love it. She's right about the hating it part so I'm hoping she's right about the loving it part as well.
Caleb and Brettley had their immunizations this morning. Caleb totally freaked out, but now he's done until grade 5. Brettley weighed in at 13 lbs 1 oz. The health nurse said he's growing very well. That's about it, I guess.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Day 26 & DONE!
Day 26 - A Song That You Can Play On An Instrument
Smoke On The Water by Deep Purple
I probably can't anymore, but I could play part of it on guitar at one point in time. I'm not very musically talented, I just have a deep appreciation for it, I guess.
***
We finished up the old place yesterday. I painted and did almost all of the cleaning of every surface in that place (John did the stuff that involved a ladder and lugging stuff into the van). Today I feel like a truck just kept running over me and backing up to do it again. I'm so happy that it's done, though, I just wish it hadn't made me unable to sit for more than 10 minutes at a time. John is handing the keys back tomorrow night, YAHOO!!!
Smoke On The Water by Deep Purple
I probably can't anymore, but I could play part of it on guitar at one point in time. I'm not very musically talented, I just have a deep appreciation for it, I guess.
***
We finished up the old place yesterday. I painted and did almost all of the cleaning of every surface in that place (John did the stuff that involved a ladder and lugging stuff into the van). Today I feel like a truck just kept running over me and backing up to do it again. I'm so happy that it's done, though, I just wish it hadn't made me unable to sit for more than 10 minutes at a time. John is handing the keys back tomorrow night, YAHOO!!!
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Day 25 & A Baptism
Day 25 - A Song That Makes You Laugh
Perry the Platypus Theme by Randy Crenshaw
We LOVE Perry the Platypus in this house.
***
Yesterday evening I got to attend the baptism of a very special girl that I've taught in Primary and she was in Activity Days while I was there as well. I was asked to give the talk about baptism, which was a huge honor. I am so happy about the choice she has made to be baptized.
Caleb and Ty decided what themes they want for their birthday parties yesterday so that I have time to make some stuff. Caleb has chosen Star Wars (after I had to talk him out of Angry Birds) and Ty has chosen Lightning McQueen from Cars.
That's about it. I'm off to go put the last coat of paint on at the old place. Have a great Saturday:)
Perry the Platypus Theme by Randy Crenshaw
We LOVE Perry the Platypus in this house.
***
Yesterday evening I got to attend the baptism of a very special girl that I've taught in Primary and she was in Activity Days while I was there as well. I was asked to give the talk about baptism, which was a huge honor. I am so happy about the choice she has made to be baptized.
Caleb and Ty decided what themes they want for their birthday parties yesterday so that I have time to make some stuff. Caleb has chosen Star Wars (after I had to talk him out of Angry Birds) and Ty has chosen Lightning McQueen from Cars.
That's about it. I'm off to go put the last coat of paint on at the old place. Have a great Saturday:)
Friday, June 24, 2011
Day 24 & The Temple
Day 24 - A Song That You Want To Play At Your Funeral
The Change by Garth Brooks
It won't get played because it will be LDS Hymns at my funeral, but if I could choose any song that isn't a hymn, this is the song I would choose. I am so sad that I couldn't find a video that didn't have Bush's voice involved, but you should seriously check this song out.
***
Our van is in the shop right now. It gushed out all of the power steering fluid yesterday. However, we were grateful that we have AMA so that they could tow it for us and that the shop said they can probably get it done today.
Yesterday night I went to the temple with my friend, Alana. I can't remember the last time I did an endowment session, but I am SO glad that I went. I feel a lot better about something I have really been struggling with and I just feel better in general. I always do after I go to the temple, I don't know why I don't go more often. However, our temple is about to close for 6 months so that they can do some work on it:( I'm looking forward to going back once it's done though.
Caleb is currently at a birthday party and wants to start planning his. His birthday is September 25th.
The Change by Garth Brooks
It won't get played because it will be LDS Hymns at my funeral, but if I could choose any song that isn't a hymn, this is the song I would choose. I am so sad that I couldn't find a video that didn't have Bush's voice involved, but you should seriously check this song out.
***
Our van is in the shop right now. It gushed out all of the power steering fluid yesterday. However, we were grateful that we have AMA so that they could tow it for us and that the shop said they can probably get it done today.
Yesterday night I went to the temple with my friend, Alana. I can't remember the last time I did an endowment session, but I am SO glad that I went. I feel a lot better about something I have really been struggling with and I just feel better in general. I always do after I go to the temple, I don't know why I don't go more often. However, our temple is about to close for 6 months so that they can do some work on it:( I'm looking forward to going back once it's done though.
Caleb is currently at a birthday party and wants to start planning his. His birthday is September 25th.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Day 23 & Attitude of Gratitude
Day 23 - A Song That You Want To Play At Your Wedding (Or Did Play, In My Case)
God Bless The Broken Road by Rascal Flatts
John's siblings and in-laws sang this for us at the family dinner on our wedding day. It became our song and we love it. (Just a fun fact, two of my nieces also sang "I Want A Hippopotamus For Christmas" at the family dinner, because I loved it, it was huge that year and it was only a week after Christmas)
***
It's Attitude of Gratitude day!
1) I am grateful for the miracles in my life. Yesterday morning I took the last of the vitamins that I had left and figured I was going to have to go until some time next week without taking any because that's usually how long a shipment takes to get to me. However, the doorbell rang later in the morning and it was my shipment of vitamins, so I was able to take a normal amount yesterday.
2) I am grateful for my dad who has spent a lot of time with my kids this past week so that he could help me out. First, so that I had time to get my vitamins back in my system and then so that John and I could spend time getting the other unit painted. (1 more coat of paint in 2 of the rooms and some cleaning and then we're done!!!)
3) I am grateful that Caleb is content to play Angry Birds in the mornings and that Ty and Brettley have been sleeping in. I've been getting to sleep until 8 this week and it's been nice (and much needed after I've spent an evening painting).
God Bless The Broken Road by Rascal Flatts
John's siblings and in-laws sang this for us at the family dinner on our wedding day. It became our song and we love it. (Just a fun fact, two of my nieces also sang "I Want A Hippopotamus For Christmas" at the family dinner, because I loved it, it was huge that year and it was only a week after Christmas)
***
It's Attitude of Gratitude day!
1) I am grateful for the miracles in my life. Yesterday morning I took the last of the vitamins that I had left and figured I was going to have to go until some time next week without taking any because that's usually how long a shipment takes to get to me. However, the doorbell rang later in the morning and it was my shipment of vitamins, so I was able to take a normal amount yesterday.
2) I am grateful for my dad who has spent a lot of time with my kids this past week so that he could help me out. First, so that I had time to get my vitamins back in my system and then so that John and I could spend time getting the other unit painted. (1 more coat of paint in 2 of the rooms and some cleaning and then we're done!!!)
3) I am grateful that Caleb is content to play Angry Birds in the mornings and that Ty and Brettley have been sleeping in. I've been getting to sleep until 8 this week and it's been nice (and much needed after I've spent an evening painting).
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Day 22
Day 22 - A Song That You Listen To When You're Sad
This Day by Jenny Jordan Frogley
There is no video for this, sorry. It's a great song, though.
***
We got some painting and priming done on the old place yesterday. Should only be 2 more days of painting and then we can finish cleaning and be done with it. We're planning on handing it back on Monday or Tuesday, YAY!!!
This Day by Jenny Jordan Frogley
There is no video for this, sorry. It's a great song, though.
***
We got some painting and priming done on the old place yesterday. Should only be 2 more days of painting and then we can finish cleaning and be done with it. We're planning on handing it back on Monday or Tuesday, YAY!!!
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Day 21, Rain & Running
Day 21 - A Song That You Listen To When You're Happy
Uprising by Muse
We really like Muse.
***
Only 9 days of the song challenge left for those of you who are sick of it. We had a lot of rain yesterday. I put Ty in his splash outfit and gum boots and took him outside in it. He had so much fun running through puddles.
Tonight we're going to get some painting done. I want to have the painting done by the end of Friday so we can do the last of the cleaning on Saturday and then do the walk through one day next week. I will be so glad to be shot of the place, especially since it means that I can move onto my next project. Starting on July 1st I will be training myself to run 5K. Depending on how much I enjoy it, I may or may not eventually train myself to run 10K. I will be posting my progress on here every day, mostly to keep myself accountable to keep going. I am planning to run 5 days per week. The absolute minimum is 3. I will not be running on Sundays for sure, though.
The hardest part of running is that I don't have a decent pair of trainers to run in. I have cheap runners, that's it. Hopefully they'll get me through the 9 weeks, though. After I'm done the 9 weeks I can think about getting some if I decide to keep going with it.
Uprising by Muse
We really like Muse.
***
Only 9 days of the song challenge left for those of you who are sick of it. We had a lot of rain yesterday. I put Ty in his splash outfit and gum boots and took him outside in it. He had so much fun running through puddles.
Tonight we're going to get some painting done. I want to have the painting done by the end of Friday so we can do the last of the cleaning on Saturday and then do the walk through one day next week. I will be so glad to be shot of the place, especially since it means that I can move onto my next project. Starting on July 1st I will be training myself to run 5K. Depending on how much I enjoy it, I may or may not eventually train myself to run 10K. I will be posting my progress on here every day, mostly to keep myself accountable to keep going. I am planning to run 5 days per week. The absolute minimum is 3. I will not be running on Sundays for sure, though.
The hardest part of running is that I don't have a decent pair of trainers to run in. I have cheap runners, that's it. Hopefully they'll get me through the 9 weeks, though. After I'm done the 9 weeks I can think about getting some if I decide to keep going with it.
Monday, June 20, 2011
Day 20 & The Weekend
Day 20 - A Song That You Listen To When You're Angry
Falling Away From Me by Korn AND Counterfeit by Limp Bizkit
I had the links set up for these and then decided against it. It's angry heavy 90s music and the Korn video is speaking out about a difficult issue (child abuse), so I figured that I'm probably one the very few on here who would like either of these songs anyway.
***
We had a really good weekend. I went out with some friends for a movie night on Friday. Finally watched Tangled and it was really cute. On Saturday John and I went out for a date while one of the young women from our ward babysat the boys. She's the only person who is neither family nor an adult that I'd trust to babysit Brettley. John and I saw Pirates 4 in 3D. The 3D was a lot better than The Last Airbender, but we have agreed that we haven't really liked any Pirates movies other than the first one. This one was still better than the 2nd and 3rd, though, but Jack Sparrow wasn't as out to lunch in this one, which we sorely missed. It was SO nice to have a date night out of the house, though.
Yesterday we substituted in Sunbeams, which was interesting. There were 3 kids in there and they all had very fun and energetic personalities. John got cards and pictures and a Star Wars drawing book for Father's Day. I made garlic bread and homemade lasagna for supper, which we invited my dad over for. We had coconut creme pie and ice cream for dessert. It was all really good. We gave my dad a card and a gift bag of snacks he likes. I really enjoyed visiting with my dad after supper. Our relationship has changed a lot and I'm very happy about that.
Some fun news is that I plan on going on a trip down to Kalispell with a friend of mine in November. We're planning on going for a week, for Black Friday (eek). I would love to go back to Utah again, but I'm not sure when we'll get there. John couldn't do the drive again (we had to resort to energy drinks last year), so we need to save up the money to fly down and I don't think flying 5 people down to SLC is going to be the cheapest thing we've ever done. Plus, we're planning to replace our van next year. Anyway, back to the Kalispell thing, I'm very excited about it. It will be so much fun to do a trip with a friend, I've never done anything like this before (not for more than a night or two).
Falling Away From Me by Korn AND Counterfeit by Limp Bizkit
I had the links set up for these and then decided against it. It's angry heavy 90s music and the Korn video is speaking out about a difficult issue (child abuse), so I figured that I'm probably one the very few on here who would like either of these songs anyway.
***
We had a really good weekend. I went out with some friends for a movie night on Friday. Finally watched Tangled and it was really cute. On Saturday John and I went out for a date while one of the young women from our ward babysat the boys. She's the only person who is neither family nor an adult that I'd trust to babysit Brettley. John and I saw Pirates 4 in 3D. The 3D was a lot better than The Last Airbender, but we have agreed that we haven't really liked any Pirates movies other than the first one. This one was still better than the 2nd and 3rd, though, but Jack Sparrow wasn't as out to lunch in this one, which we sorely missed. It was SO nice to have a date night out of the house, though.
Yesterday we substituted in Sunbeams, which was interesting. There were 3 kids in there and they all had very fun and energetic personalities. John got cards and pictures and a Star Wars drawing book for Father's Day. I made garlic bread and homemade lasagna for supper, which we invited my dad over for. We had coconut creme pie and ice cream for dessert. It was all really good. We gave my dad a card and a gift bag of snacks he likes. I really enjoyed visiting with my dad after supper. Our relationship has changed a lot and I'm very happy about that.
Some fun news is that I plan on going on a trip down to Kalispell with a friend of mine in November. We're planning on going for a week, for Black Friday (eek). I would love to go back to Utah again, but I'm not sure when we'll get there. John couldn't do the drive again (we had to resort to energy drinks last year), so we need to save up the money to fly down and I don't think flying 5 people down to SLC is going to be the cheapest thing we've ever done. Plus, we're planning to replace our van next year. Anyway, back to the Kalispell thing, I'm very excited about it. It will be so much fun to do a trip with a friend, I've never done anything like this before (not for more than a night or two).
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Days 18 & 19
Here we are. You are here because you have permission to be here. I know who's reading this now, which is kind of nice, in a way.
No big update today, that will come tomorrow. I just wanted to catch up on the songs.
Day 18 - A Song That You Wish You Heard On The Radio
Nickles and Dimes by Incura
There's no video for this one. I went to school in grade 11 with the lead singer of Incura, Kyle Gruninger. He was always really nice to me and we swapped CDs a couple of times. I think he has an incredible voice and I'm very happy for him that he is doing what he wanted to do, making music.
Day 19 - A Song From Your Favorite Album
Christmas Eve/Sarajevo by Trans Siberian Orchestra
Seriously, who was actually expecting that? However, TSO's Christmas Eve and Other Stories Album is my favorite. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Christmas and I listen to this album year round. It's amazing!
Happy Sabbath, today is 7 years to the day since I was baptized.
No big update today, that will come tomorrow. I just wanted to catch up on the songs.
Day 18 - A Song That You Wish You Heard On The Radio
Nickles and Dimes by Incura
There's no video for this one. I went to school in grade 11 with the lead singer of Incura, Kyle Gruninger. He was always really nice to me and we swapped CDs a couple of times. I think he has an incredible voice and I'm very happy for him that he is doing what he wanted to do, making music.
Day 19 - A Song From Your Favorite Album
Christmas Eve/Sarajevo by Trans Siberian Orchestra
Seriously, who was actually expecting that? However, TSO's Christmas Eve and Other Stories Album is my favorite. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Christmas and I listen to this album year round. It's amazing!
Happy Sabbath, today is 7 years to the day since I was baptized.
Friday, June 17, 2011
Day 17 and Being Real
Day 17 - A Song That You Hear Often On The Radio
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
This song is really making a comeback which makes me happy because it is a beautiful song and I have loved it ever since I first heard it way back in the day. It is one of my favorite songs of all time.
***
I wasn't going to write this because I'm trying to be a 'bit' more positive on here. However, I decided that I'd rather be real than appear to be positive 24/7. I write on here for myself more than anyone else.
I made a BIG mistake. When we moved I got out of the habit of taking my vitamins. If you've been following my blog for a while you know that my sanity depends on my taking those vitamins. I don't say that for dramatic effect, it's the honest to goodness truth. Well, it has been almost a month since we moved so my bipolar flared up along with a nice big dose of postpartum. I have had postpartum after every pregnancy and it has been worse each time. This is the only time I've had it knowing that it's worse because I have type II bipolar. Anyway, so things kind of hit the roof on Wednesday. My dad called me from work and said that he was on his way over (my mum ratted me out, thank goodness). He got here and had me pack an overnight bag for the older boys. So I spent most of Wednesday and Thursday with just Brettley. It helped a lot and made me a lot more grateful for my dad. I was still having panic attacks last night (even woke up with one during the night) so Dad came and got them again this morning for the day. It's slowly getting better, but things have to get into my system in order for them to work properly and having postpartum on top of that doesn't make things easy. So if I've sounded pretty off lately, that's the reason why. So if anyone doesn't mind, please pray that my vitamins will start working again fast and that they will do their job. Thanks. Hope you have a wonderful weekend.
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
This song is really making a comeback which makes me happy because it is a beautiful song and I have loved it ever since I first heard it way back in the day. It is one of my favorite songs of all time.
***
I wasn't going to write this because I'm trying to be a 'bit' more positive on here. However, I decided that I'd rather be real than appear to be positive 24/7. I write on here for myself more than anyone else.
I made a BIG mistake. When we moved I got out of the habit of taking my vitamins. If you've been following my blog for a while you know that my sanity depends on my taking those vitamins. I don't say that for dramatic effect, it's the honest to goodness truth. Well, it has been almost a month since we moved so my bipolar flared up along with a nice big dose of postpartum. I have had postpartum after every pregnancy and it has been worse each time. This is the only time I've had it knowing that it's worse because I have type II bipolar. Anyway, so things kind of hit the roof on Wednesday. My dad called me from work and said that he was on his way over (my mum ratted me out, thank goodness). He got here and had me pack an overnight bag for the older boys. So I spent most of Wednesday and Thursday with just Brettley. It helped a lot and made me a lot more grateful for my dad. I was still having panic attacks last night (even woke up with one during the night) so Dad came and got them again this morning for the day. It's slowly getting better, but things have to get into my system in order for them to work properly and having postpartum on top of that doesn't make things easy. So if I've sounded pretty off lately, that's the reason why. So if anyone doesn't mind, please pray that my vitamins will start working again fast and that they will do their job. Thanks. Hope you have a wonderful weekend.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Day 16 & AoG
Day 16 - A Song You Used To Love But Now Hate
Pushing Me Away - Linkin Park
It's for personal reasons, not because of the song itself. However, it doesn't change the fact that I used to love this song and now can't handle listening to it.
***
Woah! Is it Thursday already? Here we go...
1) I am grateful for my dad. He really came through for me big time yesterday. It made me appreciate him a whole lot more. He is a far far better man than I give him credit for most of the time. Better think of something good for Sunday.
2) I am grateful for my sweet little Brettley. He is currently trying to learn how to giggle. He tries so hard and gets the biggest, cutest grin on his face. It's so adorable. I love him and am so blessed to be his mother.
3) I am grateful for people who are in tune with the Spirit enough that they can say the exact thing that I need to hear. When things started getting rough on Tuesday for me, a wonderful person asked me if I'd like to go to the temple with her next week. It was what I needed more than anything else at the time. Thank you so much, you know who you are.
Pushing Me Away - Linkin Park
It's for personal reasons, not because of the song itself. However, it doesn't change the fact that I used to love this song and now can't handle listening to it.
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Woah! Is it Thursday already? Here we go...
1) I am grateful for my dad. He really came through for me big time yesterday. It made me appreciate him a whole lot more. He is a far far better man than I give him credit for most of the time. Better think of something good for Sunday.
2) I am grateful for my sweet little Brettley. He is currently trying to learn how to giggle. He tries so hard and gets the biggest, cutest grin on his face. It's so adorable. I love him and am so blessed to be his mother.
3) I am grateful for people who are in tune with the Spirit enough that they can say the exact thing that I need to hear. When things started getting rough on Tuesday for me, a wonderful person asked me if I'd like to go to the temple with her next week. It was what I needed more than anything else at the time. Thank you so much, you know who you are.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
This Is Me
Day 15 - A Song That Describes You
Loser Like Me - Glee Cast
Please don't write this one off just because it's from Glee. It was from the episode when they were doing original songs for regionals. The reason why it describes me won't make sense if you don't watch it. I recently decided that I will not be attending my high school 10 year reunion next year. High school was a horrid experience for me. People made me feel horrible about myself on a regular basis, which is still causing me issues. My weekends in grade 12 were spent watching movies with my brother, that's how much of a loser I was. However, unlike a lot of the people I graduated with, I got everything that I wanted out of life. I married a wonderful man who loves me, respects me and appreciates me. I am able to stay at home with my children. That was what I wanted. So I may have been a big loser, but if being a loser means that you get what you actually want out of life, then they'd all want to be a loser like me.
Loser Like Me - Glee Cast
Please don't write this one off just because it's from Glee. It was from the episode when they were doing original songs for regionals. The reason why it describes me won't make sense if you don't watch it. I recently decided that I will not be attending my high school 10 year reunion next year. High school was a horrid experience for me. People made me feel horrible about myself on a regular basis, which is still causing me issues. My weekends in grade 12 were spent watching movies with my brother, that's how much of a loser I was. However, unlike a lot of the people I graduated with, I got everything that I wanted out of life. I married a wonderful man who loves me, respects me and appreciates me. I am able to stay at home with my children. That was what I wanted. So I may have been a big loser, but if being a loser means that you get what you actually want out of life, then they'd all want to be a loser like me.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Day 14 & Night 2
Day 14 - A Song That No One Would Expect You To Love
I'm A Survivor - Reba McEntire
There isn't actually a video, it's just the song and a picture from the show, Reba. It's not a song that I'd normally like, but we used to watch Reba every night and I quickly fell in love with the song.
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Night 2 of a bedtime routine went fairly well. The boys got in to bed later than I'd hoped because they went to the library, but we still did a bath, water, scriptures & prayers and 2 songs. They were both asleep by 8:30 again.
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I'm A Survivor - Reba McEntire
There isn't actually a video, it's just the song and a picture from the show, Reba. It's not a song that I'd normally like, but we used to watch Reba every night and I quickly fell in love with the song.
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Night 2 of a bedtime routine went fairly well. The boys got in to bed later than I'd hoped because they went to the library, but we still did a bath, water, scriptures & prayers and 2 songs. They were both asleep by 8:30 again.
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Monday, June 13, 2011
Yesterday and Today
Day 12 - A Song From a Band That You Hate
Baby - Justin Bieber
Hate's a strong word, but I REALLY don't like Justin Beiber. So much, in fact, that I didn't even want to subject anyone to the video link.
Day 13 - A Song That Is A Guilty Pleasure
It's My Life/Confessions Pt. II Mash Up - Glee Cast
Pretty much anything from Glee works as a guilty pleasure. Thank goodness for you tube and iTunes so that I can enjoy the music without having to watch the show. Also, John loves this mash up as well. Just a warning though, it does have the other version of 'dang' in there once.
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Onto other news, I was released from my calling yesterday as the Activity Days leader. I will really miss the girls and helping them work toward their Faith in God awards. I'm very happy to have seen all that they've accomplished while I've been in this calling. However, I'm am excited to serve outside of Primary for a while. I was called to serve on the Relief Society board (basically the former Enrichment committee). Should be good fun. It's a calling that I've thought a few times before that I'd really enjoy and it's more flexible than the Activity Days calling, so that's good.
I got some painting done on the old house on Saturday and ended up making myself sick in the process because I got so hot. I was going to do one more room but I had to call it done because my stomach was ready to rebel. I'll be going to do more painting this evening, but might make John bring a fan over there first.
Ty has been a rotter to get to sleep lately. He'll spend hours trying to leave his room and we just have to keep on taking him back. Child locks are useless with our children, they mastered them long ago. So yesterday we started a bedtime routine with them and will be continuing for several weeks. Hopefully it will help. They were both asleep by 8:30 yesterday, which is a lot better than the midnighter Ty pulled last week. The eventual goal is in bed at 7:30 and asleep by 8:00, so not too far off.
Last, just a reminder that my blog will be going private as of this coming Saturday, so please let me know if you want to be able to keep following it after it does (give me your e-mail address as well). You can either put it up on here and I'll delete it as soon as I've copied down your address or message it to me on facebook. I'm the only Nikki Bly on there with her whole family in her profile pic.
Hope you had a great weekend:)
Baby - Justin Bieber
Hate's a strong word, but I REALLY don't like Justin Beiber. So much, in fact, that I didn't even want to subject anyone to the video link.
Day 13 - A Song That Is A Guilty Pleasure
It's My Life/Confessions Pt. II Mash Up - Glee Cast
Pretty much anything from Glee works as a guilty pleasure. Thank goodness for you tube and iTunes so that I can enjoy the music without having to watch the show. Also, John loves this mash up as well. Just a warning though, it does have the other version of 'dang' in there once.
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Onto other news, I was released from my calling yesterday as the Activity Days leader. I will really miss the girls and helping them work toward their Faith in God awards. I'm very happy to have seen all that they've accomplished while I've been in this calling. However, I'm am excited to serve outside of Primary for a while. I was called to serve on the Relief Society board (basically the former Enrichment committee). Should be good fun. It's a calling that I've thought a few times before that I'd really enjoy and it's more flexible than the Activity Days calling, so that's good.
I got some painting done on the old house on Saturday and ended up making myself sick in the process because I got so hot. I was going to do one more room but I had to call it done because my stomach was ready to rebel. I'll be going to do more painting this evening, but might make John bring a fan over there first.
Ty has been a rotter to get to sleep lately. He'll spend hours trying to leave his room and we just have to keep on taking him back. Child locks are useless with our children, they mastered them long ago. So yesterday we started a bedtime routine with them and will be continuing for several weeks. Hopefully it will help. They were both asleep by 8:30 yesterday, which is a lot better than the midnighter Ty pulled last week. The eventual goal is in bed at 7:30 and asleep by 8:00, so not too far off.
Last, just a reminder that my blog will be going private as of this coming Saturday, so please let me know if you want to be able to keep following it after it does (give me your e-mail address as well). You can either put it up on here and I'll delete it as soon as I've copied down your address or message it to me on facebook. I'm the only Nikki Bly on there with her whole family in her profile pic.
Hope you had a great weekend:)
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Catch Up On Songs
I decided to catch up to the day of the month with my 30 day song challenge so that I'll be done by the end of the month. Since I just post the links and not the actual video it won't take up a bunch of room. So here we go:
Day 2 - My Least Favourite Song
Safety Dance - Men Without Hats
I'm sure there's a song I dislike more, but this was the first one that came to mind. Funny enough, John loves this song.
Day 3 - A Song That Makes Me Happy
Boys of Summer - The Ataris
I remember that John and I were listening to music in the car right after my morning sickness with Caleb went away and this song came on and I just started rocking out to it. It's just a song that helps me feel happy no matter how rough things are or have been lately.
Day 4 - A Song That Makes Me Sad
Daddy's Girl - Red Sovine
It used to make me sad because I never had the kind of relationship with my dad that I would have liked. Now it makes me sad because I'll never get to play this while watching John hold a daughter. No video for this one, sorry.
Day 5 - A Song That Reminds Me Of Someone
The Reason - Hoobastank
I could have used many songs because I associate lots of songs with people, but I decided to use this one because every single time I hear it, it reminds me of L. She was the reason that I decided to change who I was. It's another strange video, though.
Day 6 - A Song That Reminds Me Of Somewhere
Southside - Moby
This song was huge the year that I lived in Lethbridge and so we heard it a LOT. No video because we felt it was inappropriate.
Day 7 - A Song That Reminds Me Of A Certain Event
Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson
This was my brother's grad song. I wore a beautiful dress to his grad that I actually got to pick out (I didn't get to pick my grad dress because it had to work for my mum's wedding which was 2 months later). I had a really nice date for my brother's grad and I got to see my little Rooie rock his fedora.
Day 8 - A Song I Know All The Words To
There's no song or video for this because I know all of the words to almost every single song on our iTunes that is mine.
Day 9 - A Song You Can Dance To
Thriller/Heads Will Roll Mash Up - Glee Cast
Again, I could have picked a lot of songs, but I just decided to go with this one. I just want to clarify that I don't really like the SHOW Glee, but I do love a lot of the music on it, which is where YouTube is nice to have.
Day 10 - A Song That Makes You Fall Asleep
Only Time - Enya
I love it, but I associate it with sleep because when I worked in daycare it was a long we played quietly a lot in the infant room while they were napping.
Day 11 - A Song From Your Favourite Band
Neutron Star Collision - Muse
This was tough for me because I really don't have a favourite band, I just have songs that I like. However, we do like Muse in this house, so I went with one by them.
There, I'm up to date now. Also, a very happy 4 months old birthday to my beautiful little boy, Brettley.
Day 2 - My Least Favourite Song
Safety Dance - Men Without Hats
I'm sure there's a song I dislike more, but this was the first one that came to mind. Funny enough, John loves this song.
Day 3 - A Song That Makes Me Happy
Boys of Summer - The Ataris
I remember that John and I were listening to music in the car right after my morning sickness with Caleb went away and this song came on and I just started rocking out to it. It's just a song that helps me feel happy no matter how rough things are or have been lately.
Day 4 - A Song That Makes Me Sad
Daddy's Girl - Red Sovine
It used to make me sad because I never had the kind of relationship with my dad that I would have liked. Now it makes me sad because I'll never get to play this while watching John hold a daughter. No video for this one, sorry.
Day 5 - A Song That Reminds Me Of Someone
The Reason - Hoobastank
I could have used many songs because I associate lots of songs with people, but I decided to use this one because every single time I hear it, it reminds me of L. She was the reason that I decided to change who I was. It's another strange video, though.
Day 6 - A Song That Reminds Me Of Somewhere
Southside - Moby
This song was huge the year that I lived in Lethbridge and so we heard it a LOT. No video because we felt it was inappropriate.
Day 7 - A Song That Reminds Me Of A Certain Event
Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson
This was my brother's grad song. I wore a beautiful dress to his grad that I actually got to pick out (I didn't get to pick my grad dress because it had to work for my mum's wedding which was 2 months later). I had a really nice date for my brother's grad and I got to see my little Rooie rock his fedora.
Day 8 - A Song I Know All The Words To
There's no song or video for this because I know all of the words to almost every single song on our iTunes that is mine.
Day 9 - A Song You Can Dance To
Thriller/Heads Will Roll Mash Up - Glee Cast
Again, I could have picked a lot of songs, but I just decided to go with this one. I just want to clarify that I don't really like the SHOW Glee, but I do love a lot of the music on it, which is where YouTube is nice to have.
Day 10 - A Song That Makes You Fall Asleep
Only Time - Enya
I love it, but I associate it with sleep because when I worked in daycare it was a long we played quietly a lot in the infant room while they were napping.
Day 11 - A Song From Your Favourite Band
Neutron Star Collision - Muse
This was tough for me because I really don't have a favourite band, I just have songs that I like. However, we do like Muse in this house, so I went with one by them.
There, I'm up to date now. Also, a very happy 4 months old birthday to my beautiful little boy, Brettley.
Friday, June 10, 2011
30 Day Song Challenge - Day 1
I've decided to do the 30 day song challenge. Anyone who knows me remotely well knows that music is a HUGE part of my life. It's my outlet. Some of the days won't have a video to go with the song because I can't find a video to go with some of them or else I can only find the live version which includes profanity in it. However, today's is fine. However, just for the record, this was the first time I have ever seen the video and will probably be the last.
Day 1 - Your Favorite Song
Sing = My Chemical Romance
Also, please don't forget to send me your e-mail address if you want to keep following my blog after it goes private (see previous post).
Day 1 - Your Favorite Song
Sing = My Chemical Romance
Also, please don't forget to send me your e-mail address if you want to keep following my blog after it goes private (see previous post).
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Going Private
After much contemplation I have decided that The Bly Blog will be going private starting on June 18th. So if you'd like to keep reading, please message me your e-mail address on facebook so that I can send you an invite when the time comes. If you don't have me on facebook, there aren't too many Nikki Bly people on there and I'm the only one with my whole family in my profile pic, apparently. I would just feel more comfortable actually knowing who is reading my blog, and then I can be a bit more at ease about naming towns and cities.
The Other Letter
I've decided to forego the Attitude of Gratitude for this week and write the other letter instead.
Dear Future (and hopefully wiser) Self:
To be perfectly honest, I have no idea what the last 10 years have been like for you. Oh, there are some basics that I have no doubt of. You and John will have just celebrated your 15th wedding anniversary this past New Year's Eve. Your boys probably still drive you up the wall, just not for the same reasons they do as I'm writing this. Even so, you are so grateful for each of them and love them more than they'll ever know. You are still active in church and have served in a few callings between my now and your now. These things I'm sure of because I know that these things are the most important things in the world to you and that they make up most of who you are.
L is just about to turn 17, I'm sure you're probably starting to get nervous about seeing her face to face again next year. If things haven't changed too much in that respect, you will be worried about what to say and about how much she'll really understand about why you made the decision you made. There's one thing you've known all along though, she'll never be upset for being raised by C & D because they are amazing and you couldn't have chose better (well, the Lord chose and we chose to follow His plan, really). Just keep praying to have the words that you'll need to have.
Caleb will have started going to youth dances by now. Is he like you, does he love to dance? Or is he like John and really not into that? What kind of a person has he become? Does he have a strong testimony? Do Ty and Brett have strong testimonies? How long did it take Brett to catch up to his actual age? He's a month behind, maybe a titch less, as I'm writing this. How long was Ty a complete turkey for?
There are more things that I wonder about. Did any of your family end up joining the church? Did you make it back to Utah? Have you and John managed to take a vacation without kids yet? Has your bipolar stayed relatively manageable? Did you ever start having less anxiety attacks than I'm having now? Have you managed to get to a healthy weight again? Have Roo & D had any kids yet?
However, like I said. I already know the basics of what you are because the things that are most important to us are just THAT important and they always will be that important. I hope that your past 10 years have been a bit easier on you than my last 10 years have been, but my last 10 years have helped to shape who we both are. As rough as the ride has been, I wouldn't trade what came out of it for anything and I'm sure you feel the same. Just keep on going and never lose sight of what we're striving to keep, an eternal family.
Lots of love:
Your 10 Year Younger Self
Dear Future (and hopefully wiser) Self:
To be perfectly honest, I have no idea what the last 10 years have been like for you. Oh, there are some basics that I have no doubt of. You and John will have just celebrated your 15th wedding anniversary this past New Year's Eve. Your boys probably still drive you up the wall, just not for the same reasons they do as I'm writing this. Even so, you are so grateful for each of them and love them more than they'll ever know. You are still active in church and have served in a few callings between my now and your now. These things I'm sure of because I know that these things are the most important things in the world to you and that they make up most of who you are.
L is just about to turn 17, I'm sure you're probably starting to get nervous about seeing her face to face again next year. If things haven't changed too much in that respect, you will be worried about what to say and about how much she'll really understand about why you made the decision you made. There's one thing you've known all along though, she'll never be upset for being raised by C & D because they are amazing and you couldn't have chose better (well, the Lord chose and we chose to follow His plan, really). Just keep praying to have the words that you'll need to have.
Caleb will have started going to youth dances by now. Is he like you, does he love to dance? Or is he like John and really not into that? What kind of a person has he become? Does he have a strong testimony? Do Ty and Brett have strong testimonies? How long did it take Brett to catch up to his actual age? He's a month behind, maybe a titch less, as I'm writing this. How long was Ty a complete turkey for?
There are more things that I wonder about. Did any of your family end up joining the church? Did you make it back to Utah? Have you and John managed to take a vacation without kids yet? Has your bipolar stayed relatively manageable? Did you ever start having less anxiety attacks than I'm having now? Have you managed to get to a healthy weight again? Have Roo & D had any kids yet?
However, like I said. I already know the basics of what you are because the things that are most important to us are just THAT important and they always will be that important. I hope that your past 10 years have been a bit easier on you than my last 10 years have been, but my last 10 years have helped to shape who we both are. As rough as the ride has been, I wouldn't trade what came out of it for anything and I'm sure you feel the same. Just keep on going and never lose sight of what we're striving to keep, an eternal family.
Lots of love:
Your 10 Year Younger Self
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
10 On Tuesday
I was challenged to write a letter to my future self after writing a letter to my 18 year old self. I am planning to do it, I'm just still pondering on what to say.
I've had some fun/interesting realizations lately, so I will include them in my 10 On Tuesday.
1) We will most likely have 3 missions in our family that will be back to back. Almost 6 straight years of our children serving the Lord full-time.
2) We will have boys in Young Mens for 11 years straight. I think we're going to be pro at helping to achieve the Duty to God award.
3) This Father's Day will be exactly 7 years since I was baptized and have spend over 4.5 of those years serving in Primary and maybe 4 months of it serving in Relief Society.
4) My little Caleb will be starting Kindergarten in 3 months. We'll need to start making note of healthy snacks that he likes. I don't get to buy him school supplies this year:( So instead we're going to buy him a few supplies for doing his homework with and make a homework box.
5) I am going to hit 300 blog posts in the next few months. I should decide now what I'm going to use as a giveaway for that mark.
6) My allergies this spring have been far worse than they've ever been before. I hear that's a common phrase this year. It doesn't help my eyes itch less to know that, though.
7) I LOVE Old Navy. I would spend a fortune there if I had it. Caleb already has several items from there. I buy him shirts when they go on a good sale. My favourite one we've bought him from there so far is a shirt with an arrow pointing up and it says "TOTALLY AWESOME". Had to buy it because I had taught him forever ago to say "My name is Caleb and I'm totally awesome".
8) I am trying to figure out a good support system right now to help me to lose weight. Also, some good exercise ideas. I love my Wii Fit Plus, but I'd like to do something different once in a while. I keep toying with the idea of training myself to run, but can't seem to make myself actually do anything about it. Any suggestions for support or exercise?
9) I started rewatching all of the Harry Potter movies. We're on Prisoner of Azkaban right now, or as Caleb calls it "the one where the aunt blows up like a balloon". We got through most of it yesterday, but had to stop for something and just never finished it. I have a hard time getting through Azkaban. I want to smack Alfonso Cuaron (the director) upside the head every time I watch it. Looking forward to Goblet of Fire next, though:)
10) Brettley has slept through the night 3 times now. My teeny tiny baby is slowly growing up. However, I'm sure that John is very grateful for the nights that he sleeps through.
I've had some fun/interesting realizations lately, so I will include them in my 10 On Tuesday.
1) We will most likely have 3 missions in our family that will be back to back. Almost 6 straight years of our children serving the Lord full-time.
2) We will have boys in Young Mens for 11 years straight. I think we're going to be pro at helping to achieve the Duty to God award.
3) This Father's Day will be exactly 7 years since I was baptized and have spend over 4.5 of those years serving in Primary and maybe 4 months of it serving in Relief Society.
4) My little Caleb will be starting Kindergarten in 3 months. We'll need to start making note of healthy snacks that he likes. I don't get to buy him school supplies this year:( So instead we're going to buy him a few supplies for doing his homework with and make a homework box.
5) I am going to hit 300 blog posts in the next few months. I should decide now what I'm going to use as a giveaway for that mark.
6) My allergies this spring have been far worse than they've ever been before. I hear that's a common phrase this year. It doesn't help my eyes itch less to know that, though.
7) I LOVE Old Navy. I would spend a fortune there if I had it. Caleb already has several items from there. I buy him shirts when they go on a good sale. My favourite one we've bought him from there so far is a shirt with an arrow pointing up and it says "TOTALLY AWESOME". Had to buy it because I had taught him forever ago to say "My name is Caleb and I'm totally awesome".
8) I am trying to figure out a good support system right now to help me to lose weight. Also, some good exercise ideas. I love my Wii Fit Plus, but I'd like to do something different once in a while. I keep toying with the idea of training myself to run, but can't seem to make myself actually do anything about it. Any suggestions for support or exercise?
9) I started rewatching all of the Harry Potter movies. We're on Prisoner of Azkaban right now, or as Caleb calls it "the one where the aunt blows up like a balloon". We got through most of it yesterday, but had to stop for something and just never finished it. I have a hard time getting through Azkaban. I want to smack Alfonso Cuaron (the director) upside the head every time I watch it. Looking forward to Goblet of Fire next, though:)
10) Brettley has slept through the night 3 times now. My teeny tiny baby is slowly growing up. However, I'm sure that John is very grateful for the nights that he sleeps through.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Brettley's Blessing
Truly, it deserves it's own post because he's so cute and special. Today my father-in-law blessed the baby that we were never supposed to be able to have. When we found out I have bipolar we should never have been able to have another kid. I even gave up hope for a bit. Then we got our answer. I still struggled hard to have him. It was a fight from the beginning of the pregnancy through to weeks after his birth. However, he is here, he is healthy and he is amazing. He is so loved. It was a short and sweet blessing. The part I remember the most was that Brettley would be a light when there is no other light. I hope that we can help teach him to be worthy of this, that he will shine virtuous in a world where virtue is rare and ridiculed. That he will develop a testimony that will strengthen him in the toughest of times and that he will know that his Heavenly Father and Savior should always come first in his life.
We love you so much Brettley and are so happy to have you as a member of our eternal family.
Friday, June 3, 2011
Letter To Myself
I love when I read thought provoking blogs. This morning's was "What Would You Tell Your 18 Year Old Self". I've decided to make record of this in my blog for myself because it's so interesting (to me). Read if you'd like, but please note that I'm writing this for my benefit, not your's, so no negative comments, please.
Dear Younger, Skinnier Self:
Your life for the next 8.5 years is going to be several battles, but the best parts of your life will come during this time as well. First, learn not to test people to see if they sincerely care for you. This will end up costing you the relationship that you're currently in.
Don't end up going to school next year to get away from that person. It will only end up costing you money that you don't need to be spending. Instead, find a decent job, get out on your own and enjoy life. Don't get your eyebrow pierced, for several reasons (one of them being that it will get infected about a month after you get it anyway).
When you are 19 you will find yourself pregnant and the father of the baby is not going to help out, regardless of how much you try to convince him otherwise. Do your best to take care of the baby and you will know how to make the best decision for the baby later on. (Oh, it's a girl, so stop calling it Caleb)
While you are pregnant you will be invited to go to a baptism and church service. Do not under any circumstances turn this down. We have done that once before. The decision to go will change your life for the better in ways that you couldn't possibly imagine.
About 5 weeks before your due date you will realize that the baby girl you're carrying is not meant to be your's. When you hold her parent's profile, you'll know in an instant that it's them that she's meant to be with. Knowing that and having a testimony of the importance of an eternal family will be what helps you to get through after placement.
You will go into labour a week early and there will be no doctor in Wainwright who can deliver. It will be a complicated labour, so get to the hospital immediately. The doctors in L-Town will know what to do and the baby will be fine. You will make it through this. Stay strong during delivery (even if you have to tell your mom that you love her, but to shut up).
There will come a time that you will need to move away from home and to be with people who share the same beliefs that you do. Moving back to L-City may seem appealing, but you need to go to GP. Trust me. Just don't bother trying to work at KFC, you'll end up in the hospital over that one.
A month after you move there you will meet a guy wearing a really ugly tie. Don't take too long to warm up to him, that man will end up being the best thing that ever came into your life. He will be the answer to your prayers and the man who takes you to the temple to give you an eternal family of your own. (Oh, and HE will be the one to throw the air hockey pucks at you, not G)
Choose your wedding party carefully. Don't ask people out of a sense of obligation, choose them by who is actually more important to you now. You will spend years regretting it if you don't. Also, make sure to invest in some really good cold medicine when you realize that you're sick a week before your wedding. Drink NeoCitrin like it's going out of style.
When you and your husband find out that you're pregnant, make sure that you get yourself to a doctor as soon as possible and give Diclectin a try again. If you don't, you'll end up spending almost 2 months in bed, and crawling to the bathroom will be the only exercise you'll get.
3 months after you've had your first beautiful baby boy you will end up being told you have post partum depression. Trust me when I say that it is a LOT more complicated than that. You have bipolar. Do NOT get medication for it from the doctor, it will work for only a very short period of time and will cause weight gain that you would probably spend the rest of your life trying to get rid of. There is a vitamin supplement that will work for you. Start researching EMPowerplus.
You will have 2 more amazing little boys. The last one will come early, but he will be fine. When nurses give you a hard time about not being there more, know that you are doing your personal best and that Heavenly Father is pleased with what you're doing. It will seem like hardly anyone cares about what you are going through while he is in the hospital, but if you stick close to the Savior during this time it will be fine. Remember, not everyone thinks about things the same way that you do.
During these 8.5 years there will be comments made by family members that will really hurt you. Do your best to shrug them off and not hold a grudge. There were said without tact, but not meant to be malicious and you will only end up hurting yourself.
Above all else, never ever ever fall away from the things you'll gain a testimony of while you are pregnant. This testimony gave you the wonderful things in your life that you have. It is what changed your life for the better. You will remember what your life was like before and you will know that it's not worth going back to. You are a wonderful person who is trying very hard. Don't think poorly of yourself. It doesn't matter if you don't look exactly the way that you want to. You will look beautiful to the guy with the ugly tie, and that's all that matters. You are beautiful within and that's the beauty that TRULY counts in life.
One more thing...There is a friendship that you've known for years is only out of a sense of obligation. Slowly phase it out now and don't look back. Trust me, you're far better off this way.
Hang in there. It will be rough, but it will be worth it all.
Love:
Your Future, No Longer Skinny But Even More Loved, Self
Dear Younger, Skinnier Self:
Your life for the next 8.5 years is going to be several battles, but the best parts of your life will come during this time as well. First, learn not to test people to see if they sincerely care for you. This will end up costing you the relationship that you're currently in.
Don't end up going to school next year to get away from that person. It will only end up costing you money that you don't need to be spending. Instead, find a decent job, get out on your own and enjoy life. Don't get your eyebrow pierced, for several reasons (one of them being that it will get infected about a month after you get it anyway).
When you are 19 you will find yourself pregnant and the father of the baby is not going to help out, regardless of how much you try to convince him otherwise. Do your best to take care of the baby and you will know how to make the best decision for the baby later on. (Oh, it's a girl, so stop calling it Caleb)
While you are pregnant you will be invited to go to a baptism and church service. Do not under any circumstances turn this down. We have done that once before. The decision to go will change your life for the better in ways that you couldn't possibly imagine.
About 5 weeks before your due date you will realize that the baby girl you're carrying is not meant to be your's. When you hold her parent's profile, you'll know in an instant that it's them that she's meant to be with. Knowing that and having a testimony of the importance of an eternal family will be what helps you to get through after placement.
You will go into labour a week early and there will be no doctor in Wainwright who can deliver. It will be a complicated labour, so get to the hospital immediately. The doctors in L-Town will know what to do and the baby will be fine. You will make it through this. Stay strong during delivery (even if you have to tell your mom that you love her, but to shut up).
There will come a time that you will need to move away from home and to be with people who share the same beliefs that you do. Moving back to L-City may seem appealing, but you need to go to GP. Trust me. Just don't bother trying to work at KFC, you'll end up in the hospital over that one.
A month after you move there you will meet a guy wearing a really ugly tie. Don't take too long to warm up to him, that man will end up being the best thing that ever came into your life. He will be the answer to your prayers and the man who takes you to the temple to give you an eternal family of your own. (Oh, and HE will be the one to throw the air hockey pucks at you, not G)
Choose your wedding party carefully. Don't ask people out of a sense of obligation, choose them by who is actually more important to you now. You will spend years regretting it if you don't. Also, make sure to invest in some really good cold medicine when you realize that you're sick a week before your wedding. Drink NeoCitrin like it's going out of style.
When you and your husband find out that you're pregnant, make sure that you get yourself to a doctor as soon as possible and give Diclectin a try again. If you don't, you'll end up spending almost 2 months in bed, and crawling to the bathroom will be the only exercise you'll get.
3 months after you've had your first beautiful baby boy you will end up being told you have post partum depression. Trust me when I say that it is a LOT more complicated than that. You have bipolar. Do NOT get medication for it from the doctor, it will work for only a very short period of time and will cause weight gain that you would probably spend the rest of your life trying to get rid of. There is a vitamin supplement that will work for you. Start researching EMPowerplus.
You will have 2 more amazing little boys. The last one will come early, but he will be fine. When nurses give you a hard time about not being there more, know that you are doing your personal best and that Heavenly Father is pleased with what you're doing. It will seem like hardly anyone cares about what you are going through while he is in the hospital, but if you stick close to the Savior during this time it will be fine. Remember, not everyone thinks about things the same way that you do.
During these 8.5 years there will be comments made by family members that will really hurt you. Do your best to shrug them off and not hold a grudge. There were said without tact, but not meant to be malicious and you will only end up hurting yourself.
Above all else, never ever ever fall away from the things you'll gain a testimony of while you are pregnant. This testimony gave you the wonderful things in your life that you have. It is what changed your life for the better. You will remember what your life was like before and you will know that it's not worth going back to. You are a wonderful person who is trying very hard. Don't think poorly of yourself. It doesn't matter if you don't look exactly the way that you want to. You will look beautiful to the guy with the ugly tie, and that's all that matters. You are beautiful within and that's the beauty that TRULY counts in life.
One more thing...There is a friendship that you've known for years is only out of a sense of obligation. Slowly phase it out now and don't look back. Trust me, you're far better off this way.
Hang in there. It will be rough, but it will be worth it all.
Love:
Your Future, No Longer Skinny But Even More Loved, Self
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Attitude of Gratitude Day
Let's see how well I can do this with one hand while the other is feeding the baby. *Little known fact about me = I am hopelessly stuck on home row typing*
1) I am grateful that Brettley slept through the night for the first time last night. It's a tiny bit sad since it's a reminder that my last baby won't be a tiny baby forever, but far more exciting than sad. I am also grateful that John has done almost every single night feeding with all 3 boys. I am so blessed. (For the record, we have that arrangement for a VERY good reason, not a selfish one, just in case anyone who doesn't know the reason is wondering)
2) I am grateful for Brettley's super cute smiles. He loves to smile at Mommy, his crib aquarium and his fish mobile on his swing. His smiles light up my world when they come. Brettley is so stinkin' cute!
3) I am grateful for my new home and how much better I feel here. I feel safer here and happier. I am not paranoid about mice getting in like I was before:) I am very glad to be here.
Hope you have a wonderful weekend. We're very much looking forward to Brettley's blessing on Sunday.
1) I am grateful that Brettley slept through the night for the first time last night. It's a tiny bit sad since it's a reminder that my last baby won't be a tiny baby forever, but far more exciting than sad. I am also grateful that John has done almost every single night feeding with all 3 boys. I am so blessed. (For the record, we have that arrangement for a VERY good reason, not a selfish one, just in case anyone who doesn't know the reason is wondering)
2) I am grateful for Brettley's super cute smiles. He loves to smile at Mommy, his crib aquarium and his fish mobile on his swing. His smiles light up my world when they come. Brettley is so stinkin' cute!
3) I am grateful for my new home and how much better I feel here. I feel safer here and happier. I am not paranoid about mice getting in like I was before:) I am very glad to be here.
Hope you have a wonderful weekend. We're very much looking forward to Brettley's blessing on Sunday.
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