I just spent a fair amount of time going back and deleting the majority of the comments left on my blog. It's nothing personal, it's just that I'm working towards having my blog made into a book for us to keep, so I'm trying to condense stuff. I did keep some of the comments that were more important to me, though.
I've been busy blogging this week, but none of you would know that, obviously. I've created two private blogs. One for just John and I, and one for just me. I find that it's a LOT easier for me to keep up with stuff on the computer than it is for me to keep up with a paper journal. In the private blogs I can be as open and honest as I want, which is good.
On Friday we had the Diaz family over for supper. It was fun. Then later that night I went to Jen's place and made some cards. It was SO nice to do that again. I have to admit, I'm still a bit gunshy when it comes to friends. It seems like every time I make a good friend, they go inactive or they move out of the ward (except for Amber). But I'm working on getting over that, and Jen is great.
I spent Saturday and Sunday with a super bad headache. It's doing a lot better today, though, so that's really nice.
Anyways, going through my past posts this morning, I realized I still haven't talked about my big adventure. I guess I'm in there enough now, that I can start talking about it. I'm getting into volunteering and helping with FSA. I've been answering questions for a website that's being created, I'm helping with a committee for the conference and there's some other stuff going on that I can't talk about yet, but it's been great. I love adoption!
On the note of adoption, I had to write the Coles Notes version of my adoption story yesterday. I sent it off, and was asked if it would be possible to take out the part where I said that the biggest deciding factor was the sealing covenant. It ended up being reworded, but not taken out. The reason is this, without the sealing covenant, there would have been no adoption story. L wouldn't exist, cause she wouldn't be called L, she would have been Collette (family name). C&D wouldn't have their precious girl, because I would have stuck to my selfishness and attempted to raise her myself. Just another reason why I'm so grateful for the sealing covenant, because it helped to strengthen 2 families instead of the weak one that would have been.
Today marks 53 days until we will arrive in Utah. I have the countdown on my calendar on the desk and I check it every day.
So basically, things are going good here. I'm in a far better place about the baby girl situation. I've been doing so much better with my personal prayers and scriptures lately, and I'm certain that's the reason why. I just love the gospel:)
The goings on of our geeky little family and the musings and soapbox moments of the lone female in the group.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
The Pad
Caleb got into a lot of stuff he wasn't supposed to today. One of the times was while he was in the washroom, supposedly going pee. After a while I went in and found a huge mess he'd made with stuff from under the sink. There was cleaner out, conditioner a magic eraser and pad wrappers. I just walked out. After Caleb had taken a 'nap' he informed me that he hurt inside of his pants. I told him to leave himself alone and left it at that. A few minutes later while we were in my room he starts pulling off his pants and telling me that his crotch hurt. I was like "no Caleb, don't do that". He pulls off his underwear and there is a pad stuck to his crotch and butt. He's walked in on me using a pad a few times, so he knew where it was supposed to go. Anyways, he's trying to pull the pad off and crying because it hurts and I'm like "NO!". I laid him on my bed and pulled the pad off as quickly as I could. He winced, but didn't cry. Anyways, so that's Caleb's first experience with a pad...I don't think he's brave enough for a repeat.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
A Day Late Posting
I didn't post yesterday because I couldn't trust myself to not go completely bonkers. It was looking like we weren't going to be able to go to Utah, and I took it REALLY hard. However, we are still and officially making the trek. I registered John and I for the FSA Conference last night and booked our hotel room in Layton for the conference. I can't believe that Utah is only 59 days away. Less than 2 months. YAHOO!!! The last few months have been great. I have such a renewed passion for adoption. It is an amazing and inspired blessing and anyone who thinks otherwise needs reeducation.
Not a lot of news to report here. I went to 2 baby showers last week, both babies were girls. I came home from the first one and cried. I almost didn't go to the second one because I didn't think I'd be able to handle it. I'm glad that I decided to go, though. It was lots of fun and I got to hold the baby for a while. It was actually a calming thing instead of something that made me feel worse.
Friday night I went to a scrapbooking thing at the church. We made a set of Easter pages. It was fun and it got me back into cardmaking and scrapbooking, so John is really glad that I went. He was disappointed that I haven't been doing cards. I guess it fell apart when I got sick last year. So during the weekend we took down the crib and set up the hobby room.
Not too much else is really new here. Ty still thinks nursery is the worst thing ever invented. Caleb still loves primary and his teacher. He is actually learning some of the songs now, so that makes me happy. Well, I hope you all have a wonderful week.
Not a lot of news to report here. I went to 2 baby showers last week, both babies were girls. I came home from the first one and cried. I almost didn't go to the second one because I didn't think I'd be able to handle it. I'm glad that I decided to go, though. It was lots of fun and I got to hold the baby for a while. It was actually a calming thing instead of something that made me feel worse.
Friday night I went to a scrapbooking thing at the church. We made a set of Easter pages. It was fun and it got me back into cardmaking and scrapbooking, so John is really glad that I went. He was disappointed that I haven't been doing cards. I guess it fell apart when I got sick last year. So during the weekend we took down the crib and set up the hobby room.
Not too much else is really new here. Ty still thinks nursery is the worst thing ever invented. Caleb still loves primary and his teacher. He is actually learning some of the songs now, so that makes me happy. Well, I hope you all have a wonderful week.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Good Saturday:)
We had a really good day on Saturday. Well, it didn't start out so well. I had fallen asleep on the couch Friday night and decided to just stay there for the night rather than crawling up the stairs while half asleep. I'm so glad that I did. John came downstairs at about 6:30 am and says "Nikki, Caleb just threw up". I don't know if I've explained this before, but I have the weakest stomach for vomit. Give me protruding bones and gushing blood and I'll do whatever needs to be done, but throw in a queasy stomach and I'm done for. Anyways, I went upstairs and gave Caleb some gravol and decided to check my e-mail. 10 minutes later Caleb got sick again. Eww!
Anyways, he went for about 3 hours without getting sick again, and he was in fine form, so we went out and got groceries. After that we came home and had lunch. Then we went to the dollar store and Walmart (and picked up hats for the boys). Off we went to the park. The boys had lots of fun there, but Ty wouldn't keep his hat on, so we had to leave when his face started to resemble a tomato. We stopped at a hobby shop for John and to Zellers for freezies and then dropped off our bottle empties. We got about $33, which basically tells us that we drink way too much pop. They weren't all from pop, though, some of it was milk jugs.
We came home from that and had barbequed hot dogs and some potato salad for supper. The boys had a bath and then they went to bed. It was a really nice day with my 3 boys.
Also, I planted my flowers that my mum gave me last week and on Friday Caleb and I planted our garden. We made a small garden in the back. It's maybe 3'x6'. We planted some lettuce, carrots and green beans. Hopefully we'll have a bit of luck with it. I guess we'll see.
Not too much else is really new here, though. We're excited for the upcoming long weekend. We don't really have any plans, but it will be nice to have John at home for an extra day. Well, I hope you all have a wonderful week.
Anyways, he went for about 3 hours without getting sick again, and he was in fine form, so we went out and got groceries. After that we came home and had lunch. Then we went to the dollar store and Walmart (and picked up hats for the boys). Off we went to the park. The boys had lots of fun there, but Ty wouldn't keep his hat on, so we had to leave when his face started to resemble a tomato. We stopped at a hobby shop for John and to Zellers for freezies and then dropped off our bottle empties. We got about $33, which basically tells us that we drink way too much pop. They weren't all from pop, though, some of it was milk jugs.
We came home from that and had barbequed hot dogs and some potato salad for supper. The boys had a bath and then they went to bed. It was a really nice day with my 3 boys.
Also, I planted my flowers that my mum gave me last week and on Friday Caleb and I planted our garden. We made a small garden in the back. It's maybe 3'x6'. We planted some lettuce, carrots and green beans. Hopefully we'll have a bit of luck with it. I guess we'll see.
Not too much else is really new here, though. We're excited for the upcoming long weekend. We don't really have any plans, but it will be nice to have John at home for an extra day. Well, I hope you all have a wonderful week.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Legal To Travel
I totally shouldn't have been worried about Sunday. It was a great day:) It started with Saturday morning. We had decided the night before to go to Wainwright. So I rushed around on Saturday morning and packed while John took the boys to go get breakfast for the road from McDonald's. Cause he's awesome and knows how much I love Sausage and Egg McMuffins. We got on the road and travelled the 2 hours to Wainwright. I know sometimes I complain about being far from family, but I'm really blessed to live as close as I do to my mum where I can make a spur of the moment trip down there for the weekend. We bought Mum some flowers and a card and gave them to her. I think they made her really happy:)
That evening we went out for dinner, courtesy of a friend of our's. He gave us the money to go out on a date. Super nice of him! We went to Boston Pizza. John had Spicy Italian Penne and I had Chicken Parmesan with rice. We ordered our Chocolate Explosions to go cause there was no way that I could eat anymore at that point. We dropped out desserts off at Mum and Bob's and took a drive out to the tressel. It was really nice and peaceful out there. We sat and talked for a while. We even got to see a train cross the tressel shortly after we got there. It was a really nice date.
Sunday we had a wonderful breakfast of French toast, pancakes, dream whip, fruit salad, sausages and bacon. Mmm, bacon:) We didn't go to church because I'd woken up with a headache and Ty had the nastiest cough ever so we didn't want to spread his cold around the branch. John gave me a card and so did the boys. I spent time out in the yard with my mum talking to her while she worked in the garden. Caleb helped Grandpa Bob dig a hole. Then later on Caleb gave me a homemade coaster and a painted block with our family picture on it that my mum helped him to make. It was great:) We had ribs, corn on the cob and Mum's potato salad for supper. (For the record, my mum makes the best potato salad ever) We dug up some plants for me and came back home. It was a really nice day and I really enjoyed myself.
This morning our passports came, which made me super excited. The Utah trip keeps feeling more and more real by the day. I am so grateful that I'm going to be able to go down and visit with friends and to participate in the FSA conference. I am truly being blessed so much right now with this oppourtunity.
Oh, also, I no longer assist a class in the Primary, I'm back to just Activity Days. It was causing me too much stress, so I had to call that one quits. It's working out good for me, though, especially since Ty just started nursery the other week and he positively loathes it. Not too sure what to do about that since Caleb never had an issue with nursery at all.
So yeah, things are going good here. I've been feeling under the weather for the last week, but the boys are both sick, so I probably just have a bit of what they have. Caleb had tonsilitis for the 3rd time in 3 months, so I scheaduled a consult with my doctor in Wainwright for the end of June. Well, that's about all for now. Hope you're doing great:)
That evening we went out for dinner, courtesy of a friend of our's. He gave us the money to go out on a date. Super nice of him! We went to Boston Pizza. John had Spicy Italian Penne and I had Chicken Parmesan with rice. We ordered our Chocolate Explosions to go cause there was no way that I could eat anymore at that point. We dropped out desserts off at Mum and Bob's and took a drive out to the tressel. It was really nice and peaceful out there. We sat and talked for a while. We even got to see a train cross the tressel shortly after we got there. It was a really nice date.
Sunday we had a wonderful breakfast of French toast, pancakes, dream whip, fruit salad, sausages and bacon. Mmm, bacon:) We didn't go to church because I'd woken up with a headache and Ty had the nastiest cough ever so we didn't want to spread his cold around the branch. John gave me a card and so did the boys. I spent time out in the yard with my mum talking to her while she worked in the garden. Caleb helped Grandpa Bob dig a hole. Then later on Caleb gave me a homemade coaster and a painted block with our family picture on it that my mum helped him to make. It was great:) We had ribs, corn on the cob and Mum's potato salad for supper. (For the record, my mum makes the best potato salad ever) We dug up some plants for me and came back home. It was a really nice day and I really enjoyed myself.
This morning our passports came, which made me super excited. The Utah trip keeps feeling more and more real by the day. I am so grateful that I'm going to be able to go down and visit with friends and to participate in the FSA conference. I am truly being blessed so much right now with this oppourtunity.
Oh, also, I no longer assist a class in the Primary, I'm back to just Activity Days. It was causing me too much stress, so I had to call that one quits. It's working out good for me, though, especially since Ty just started nursery the other week and he positively loathes it. Not too sure what to do about that since Caleb never had an issue with nursery at all.
So yeah, things are going good here. I've been feeling under the weather for the last week, but the boys are both sick, so I probably just have a bit of what they have. Caleb had tonsilitis for the 3rd time in 3 months, so I scheaduled a consult with my doctor in Wainwright for the end of June. Well, that's about all for now. Hope you're doing great:)
Friday, May 7, 2010
Thank you
Those of you that have been following my blog since the beginning probably know how nervous I am for this Sunday. I checked back to my posts about my last two Mothers Day experiences. They weren't as bad as I remember, actually. So maybe my positive thinking about this coming one will pay off and it will actually be good. Maybe? From what I understand from other birthmothers, their child's birthday is usually the hardest day of the year to deal with. It's not like that for me (I've even forgotten in the past that it was her birthday that day). My hard day is Mothers Day.
Don't mistake me. I do not regret my decision. I never have. But just because a decision is right doesn't mean that it comes completely without pain. But to be entirely truthful, I would do it all over again in a heartbeat for C & D.
Anyways, I just wanted to take this opportunity to thank the 3 most important mothers in my life.
First, thank you to J, my husband's mom. Thank you for raising your son to be a wonderful man, for teaching him the importance of the gospel, of being worthy to hold the priesthood, of serving an honorable mission for the Lord. Thank you for going through his years of waiting for the right girl with him so that when I was old enough and ready that he would be waiting for me. (John is over 8 years older than me and was almost 29 when we met).
Second, thank you to my mum. She is one of the most amazing women in the world. Thank you for always trying to do what's best for Roo and I, even though I'm sure it wasn't always easy to do. Thank you for having enough love for us that we never really felt the lack of a father in our home. "You were my mom, you were my dad, the only thing I ever had was you". I love you, I love you, I love you, Mum! I know you love to tease me about how I've become so much like you, but it makes me proud when you say that because you're so wonderful.
And last one...Come on, C, you knew this was coming! Thank you for being such a wonderful person and an amazing mother. I'm so glad to have helped you have something to celebrate on Sunday and I would do it over again because I love you so much. You have become such an inspiration to me. I don't think you realize just how much your blog lifts me up. It's helped me so much to appreciate you as a person and not just as L's mom. You feel like a friend to me, and I love you!
And Happy Mothers Day to all of my fellow mothers out there.
Oh, and here are the full lyrics to the song I quoted in my thank you to my mum. I danced with her to this song at her wedding reception and mine as well.
Thank You Mom by Good Charlotte
Always, always and forever
Always, always and forever
I'm sitting here I'm thinking back to a time when I was young...
My memory is clear as day
I'm listening to the dishes clink, you were downstairs, you would sing
Songs of praise
And all the times we laughed with you, and all the times that you stayed true to us
Now we'll say...
I said I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you will know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever
Always, always and forever
You were my mom, you were my dad, the only thing I ever had was you, it's true
Even when the times got hard, you were there to let us know...that we'd get through
You showed me how to be a man, you taught me how to understand the things people do
You showed me how to love my God, you taught me that not everyone knows the truth
And I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you will know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That you will live forever
Forever and ever
Forever and ever
Said I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you will know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you will know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That you will live forever
Don't mistake me. I do not regret my decision. I never have. But just because a decision is right doesn't mean that it comes completely without pain. But to be entirely truthful, I would do it all over again in a heartbeat for C & D.
Anyways, I just wanted to take this opportunity to thank the 3 most important mothers in my life.
First, thank you to J, my husband's mom. Thank you for raising your son to be a wonderful man, for teaching him the importance of the gospel, of being worthy to hold the priesthood, of serving an honorable mission for the Lord. Thank you for going through his years of waiting for the right girl with him so that when I was old enough and ready that he would be waiting for me. (John is over 8 years older than me and was almost 29 when we met).
Second, thank you to my mum. She is one of the most amazing women in the world. Thank you for always trying to do what's best for Roo and I, even though I'm sure it wasn't always easy to do. Thank you for having enough love for us that we never really felt the lack of a father in our home. "You were my mom, you were my dad, the only thing I ever had was you". I love you, I love you, I love you, Mum! I know you love to tease me about how I've become so much like you, but it makes me proud when you say that because you're so wonderful.
And last one...Come on, C, you knew this was coming! Thank you for being such a wonderful person and an amazing mother. I'm so glad to have helped you have something to celebrate on Sunday and I would do it over again because I love you so much. You have become such an inspiration to me. I don't think you realize just how much your blog lifts me up. It's helped me so much to appreciate you as a person and not just as L's mom. You feel like a friend to me, and I love you!
And Happy Mothers Day to all of my fellow mothers out there.
Oh, and here are the full lyrics to the song I quoted in my thank you to my mum. I danced with her to this song at her wedding reception and mine as well.
Thank You Mom by Good Charlotte
Always, always and forever
Always, always and forever
I'm sitting here I'm thinking back to a time when I was young...
My memory is clear as day
I'm listening to the dishes clink, you were downstairs, you would sing
Songs of praise
And all the times we laughed with you, and all the times that you stayed true to us
Now we'll say...
I said I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you will know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever
Always, always and forever
You were my mom, you were my dad, the only thing I ever had was you, it's true
Even when the times got hard, you were there to let us know...that we'd get through
You showed me how to be a man, you taught me how to understand the things people do
You showed me how to love my God, you taught me that not everyone knows the truth
And I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you will know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That you will live forever
Forever and ever
Forever and ever
Said I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you will know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you will know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That you will live forever
Monday, May 3, 2010
Utah Makes Me Smile
I still can't talk about the big adventure, but I'm still really excited about it and hopefully I'll have some news to share next week.
Something great happened yesterday. I actually managed to fast. I haven't done so for about a year now due to medication issues, but I figured that I would give it a try and see how it goes. I did fine all through the fast, but realized I might want to break my fast with a piece of toast about 30 minutes before I eat anything else. Too much at once doesn't make my tummy feel its best.
For Activity Days last week we made cards and crafts for our Mother's Day meeting next time. I ended up super frazzled because the other leader was helping one of our girls outside of the room for quite a long time and so I was trying to man two crafts (one of which was fairly messy and needed close supervision) by myself. However, I survived and the girls sounded like they had lots of fun, so it's all good.
Here is some exciting news that I CAN share. I'm going to be helping with the birthmothers committee for the FSA conference in July. FSA is Families Supporting Adoption. They are an organization sponsored by LDS Family Services which advocates a positive view of adoption and provides support to birth parents, adoptive families and all friends of adoption. The conference is going to be in Layton, UT and is the big push we had to finally make the trip down there. FSA has also put me in contact with a new friend who I think is just awesome:)
We are super excited about our trip to Utah. We got our passport applications in on Friday. I was so worried that something was going to be wrong with our photos or something, but the lady said that they were great and better than most photos. YAY! We are planning on heading down from Magrath to SLC on the 23rd and will head back to Canada on the 1st. We are both excited for it and John can always put a smile on my face now just by saying "Utah".
On Saturday, John and I went on a date for lunch. We were going to get sandwiches from Timmie's, but they were packed, so we ended up going to Red Robin instead. It's so nice to have some time to ourselves once in a while and I'm so grateful that my dad is willing to watch the boys for us when we need that time. The boys really enjoy their time with Grandpa Mattson, so it all works out.
That's about all for now, I guess. Hope you have a great week!
Something great happened yesterday. I actually managed to fast. I haven't done so for about a year now due to medication issues, but I figured that I would give it a try and see how it goes. I did fine all through the fast, but realized I might want to break my fast with a piece of toast about 30 minutes before I eat anything else. Too much at once doesn't make my tummy feel its best.
For Activity Days last week we made cards and crafts for our Mother's Day meeting next time. I ended up super frazzled because the other leader was helping one of our girls outside of the room for quite a long time and so I was trying to man two crafts (one of which was fairly messy and needed close supervision) by myself. However, I survived and the girls sounded like they had lots of fun, so it's all good.
Here is some exciting news that I CAN share. I'm going to be helping with the birthmothers committee for the FSA conference in July. FSA is Families Supporting Adoption. They are an organization sponsored by LDS Family Services which advocates a positive view of adoption and provides support to birth parents, adoptive families and all friends of adoption. The conference is going to be in Layton, UT and is the big push we had to finally make the trip down there. FSA has also put me in contact with a new friend who I think is just awesome:)
We are super excited about our trip to Utah. We got our passport applications in on Friday. I was so worried that something was going to be wrong with our photos or something, but the lady said that they were great and better than most photos. YAY! We are planning on heading down from Magrath to SLC on the 23rd and will head back to Canada on the 1st. We are both excited for it and John can always put a smile on my face now just by saying "Utah".
On Saturday, John and I went on a date for lunch. We were going to get sandwiches from Timmie's, but they were packed, so we ended up going to Red Robin instead. It's so nice to have some time to ourselves once in a while and I'm so grateful that my dad is willing to watch the boys for us when we need that time. The boys really enjoy their time with Grandpa Mattson, so it all works out.
That's about all for now, I guess. Hope you have a great week!
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